INSPIRED

Excerpt......

"until we realize that our fears originate in our own awareness of inevitable change and loss, we blame them on causes outside us, convinced that other people, places and things are making us feel vulnerable and threatened."

So yeah i been reading this book called The end of fear which is basically like the 'spiritual path for realist', as quoted from the Author Richard Schaub Ph.D (Psychotherapist). from the first chapter i was inspired. I myself is a Realist...kinda more on the pessimistic side tho. As i was reading, i came to realize that maybe the reason why i am always so nervous and so worried bout things is because i am well aware that my existence on this earth is not permanent therefore i am always feeling like: if this life were to end for me tomorrow, what will i be known for? what can be a representation of who i am and who will remember me?
i also started to realize that none of us will be around for ever, not me ..nor you..not your family...nor mines, and as we grow older we will witness these things that we have became so accustomed to, like family and friends fade away. If that isnt a good basis for pessimistic attitudes then idk what is. I live my life day by day knowing that i can be gone tomorrow, but u will not see me out partying getting drunk, nor at church all day because i know that neither of those paths can truly provide happines. I myself lives by the KALAMA SUTTA ....Buddha instructs the Kalama People on which basis one should decide which religious teaching to accept as true. The Buddha tells the Kalamas to not just believe religious teachings because they are claimed to be true by various sources or through the application of various methods and techniques. He urges that direct knowledge from one's own experience should be called upon. He counsels that the words of the wise should be heeded and taken into account when deciding upon the value of a teaching. This is not a dogmatic acceptance but rather a constantly questioning and testing acceptance of those teachings which can be proven to reduce suffering.

i know all of this seems unpractical to all of you reading but truthfully i think that everyone needs to evaluate themselves before they satrt to question the motives and actions of another person. I did and i see that the worst part of life is that we all die..kinda melodramatic but its the truth
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