like i simply do not understand the male species...
-why is it that when us females try our best to satisfy and be everything that a guy wants, this is when they dont want you? I thought that maybe we make ourselvess too available or is it basically that they just aren't interested? But if that is so..howcome they never seem to let that be known from the start?I understand that sometimes it seems like things are moving too fast or you may be confused..but let me work with you, especially if im trying my hardest to be apart of your life.
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now i am not trying to personalize this so readers dont be so vain because this isn't about you or me. i am just curious.
Now to personalize it....
I have taken into notice that you have been ignoring me lately and from expirience i know when a guy just doesnt want anything to do with me. I just wish that you would have been more of a man about it. Guess i can blame it on the free lol so from today on i am going to say to you that i understand and that i will no longer be a burden on your life..its is whatever. Thanks for showing me a little taste of perfection lol even if it was only 2 weeks that went well. i enjoyed your company and conversation...i loved the walks and the time i spent playing with your um dog lol =) ily
anyway......
Why the helll does it seem like i am the only person in the whole entire world who is never happy!? I build myself up only to be broken down again. I burn bridges only to be stranded. I sacrifice, Utilize, stigmatize, sensualize and antagonize myself, all for the happiness and well being for that special guy. If i had a dime for every guy that played, lied, cheated, hurt, disrespected, led on, and left me...i would be one Rich chick. I spend so much time canonizing these guys that i forget to appreciate myself. I set high expectations, and notice potential in people that would rather do dirt then do right. And trust me i am not trying to change you when i give suggestions about the things that i do and do not like for a guy to do..i am simply trying to help you better yourself. Obviously there is a light that i see in you and i want to make it my responsibility to keep that light shining and/or make it illuminate more. That is my duty as your girl/ Girl that is interested in you. It seems like i bring a full coarse meal to the table, but they would rather the fast food. It is all so confusing. And then they complain that there aren't any good women left...I wonder why
