Friday, January 30, 2009

Neosporin && G...I Dedicate Dedicate loll

well this weekend has had a very pleasantly painful beginning...somewhat lol
First i got my tat. This was like my second goal before i turn 17 (the first was get my permit) in which i also received this month :)) Happy Happy, lets Just say i'm making waves. ALSO i have had the opportunity to meet a very nice scorpio dude...kudos to him lol must i mention that i am only mentioning this guy because i was asked too, so no conclusions people, head first. This Guy spits so much G its ridiculous lol if i wasnt such the certified sweet talker that i am , i would probably be throwing my panties at this guy loll But i think i like em' like a meatphor... the cat is cool 8-) plus he's a scorpio and i'm a pisces so we connected and the horoscopes say that body rockin knockin the boots would be great...not that i am thinking that way or nuffin lmao
well yeah on another note, me and the TRUSTED (and i emphasize this) friend eric has been in Cahoots loll this is another cool cat man. we havent even been friends that long and i feel like i could tell em anything....But anyways this was just an update, I'm off to apply some Neosporin on my INk man...cuz i'm a G like that :P

Thursday, January 29, 2009


woot woot new tat ...My blogs be soooo much better than Erics BTW :)

idk lol just some shit i think about ...plus my fav. Lupe line

Deserve-(v)be given one’s due, be in line for, be worthy of, demand, earn, gain, get what is coming to one, have it coming, have the right to, justify, lay claim to, merit, procure, rate, warrant, win......

really?


What exactly is it that i deserve?
thats alll i am ever told.
by the ones i love,
the ones that love me..
even the ones that would love to be in love with me.
all they say is "tay you deserve...."

it is not soo much what comes after those words, but those 3 words alone, that stand out to me. for another person to tell me, that i deserve something other than what i already have, too me, is quite ridiculous.

is the point of you speaking of what i deserve, to express the things you will provide for me?

if you say i deserve love, will you love me?
if you say i deserve the finer things, will you provide them?
if you say i deserve trust, will you trust in me? will you allow me to trust in you?

if not, then what is the reason for telling me about anything that i should have? if you know all the things that i 'deserve' shouldnt you give it to me?







"he just sits, and watches the people in the boxes

everything he sees he absorbs and adopts it

he mimics and he mocks it

really hates the box but he can't remember how to stop it

so he continues to watch it

hoping that it'll give him somethin that he can box with

or how the locksmith, see the box as, locked in the box

ain't got the combination to unlock it

that's why he watches, scared to look away

cause at that moment, it might show him

what to take off the locks with

so he chained himself to the box

took a lock and then he locked it

swallowed the combination and then forgot it."

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Do The Right Thing........



Don't you just love that movie a Brooklyn classic) But lately that's the saying that's been going through my mind I been trying to not go back to my old ways but hey what can i do)So I'm making a LIST AND CHECKING IT TWICE OF THE THINGS I DID THIS WEEK.BECAUSE I GOT THING TO DO AND ITS JUST QUICKER


**Tuesday-looked at history being made our first black president

**Wednesday-Went to school and did fucking exam...failed and talked to amala

**Thursday-Same as Friday but talked to amala longer....


**Friday-Went to all my teachers and pegged them to pass my black ass...

**Saturday-Went to Soho with my sister anit get shit just watched her shop and talked to tay for maid long about here love life and why she single....o and i talked to amala


AND TODAY I'M NOT DO IN SHIT ......

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Guilty Concious


SUP!!!!!!!! Well today is Sunday and because did int post none this week im just start frm Friday.ok so shytay(that's what im calling her from now on)and i went to a party in the city and it was an unusual party but nowing myself i still had a good time alot of good looking white gurls i was in heaven..but let me tell u guys about tay she is the most shyest person in the world i was laughing sometimes at her because i was walking around the party trying to give her number to random guys but tay looked hot she was the hottest black gurl in the building i couldn't get the guys off of her. but when the party was over we went to spring street to get a good old slice of pizza(well tay did)and we had to end our night of fun Early because a curtain someone wanted to go home(im just call this person MOEARLY) it was so cold that night i froze my ass,dick head fingers off i couldn't believe how cold it was i wanted to just die out there but once we got on the train Put in my ipodi and tune MOEARLY OUT tay was in her own little world but im tired of typing i got a life ........TTYL

I WAS REALLY BORED JUST NOW

Dont Mind me....

well today i chilled with my neice shamya...aka the diva..she had the nerve to say "tay what ya name is?..you aint no diva " lol yes i guess she just loves beyonce....so yeah we made a video for face book but i'll post it here too

                                                   
lol this child is like too funny. if i have a dughter i want her to be just like my prissy little niece. :)
heres more pics from today







                                             Caught texting <3 lol haha

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Realism, Optimism, or pessimism?



ok well i was thinking about the buddhist idea of Nirvana and the 4 noble truths, and upon my discussion with myself i came across the argument of whether a realist is just a very happy pessimist or a very sad optimist. so we all (should) know that a pessimist sees the bad and a optimist see the good..but what exactly is a realist? i think that a realist is just a person who is a hopeful pessimist who sees the worst and hopes for the good. or they can be a very dissapointed optimist who is always looking for the good but is always let down.

but when it came down to it i started to wonder which exactly i am. i always see myself as a pessimist, much because i am a strong believer in the 4 noble truths which are

1. Life means suffering.

To live means to suffer, because the human nature is not perfect and neither is the world we live in. During our lifetime, we inevitably have to endure physical suffering such as pain, sickness, injury, tiredness, old age, and eventually death; and we have to endure psychological suffering like sadness, fear, frustration, disappointment, and depression. Although there are different degrees of suffering and there are also positive experiences in life that we perceive as the opposite of suffering, such as ease, comfort and happiness, life in its totality is imperfect and incomplete, because our world is subject to impermanence. This means we are never able to keep permanently what we strive for, and just as happy moments pass by, we ourselves and our loved ones will pass away one day, too.

2. The origin of suffering is attachment.

The origin of suffering is attachment to transient things and the ignorance thereof. Transient things do not only include the physical objects that surround us, but also ideas, and -in a greater sense- all objects of our perception. Ignorance is the lack of understanding of how our mind is attached to impermanent things. The reasons for suffering are desire, passion, ardour, pursuit of wealth and prestige, striving for fame and popularity, or in short: craving and clinging. Because the objects of our attachment are transient, their loss is inevitable, thus suffering will necessarily follow. Objects of attachment also include the idea of a "self" which is a delusion, because there is no abiding self. What we call "self" is just an imagined entity, and we are merely a part of the ceaseless becoming of the universe.

3. The cessation of suffering is attainable.

The cessation of suffering can be attained through nirodha. Nirodha means the unmaking of sensual craving and conceptual attachment. The third noble truth expresses the idea that suffering can be ended by attaining dispassion. Nirodha extinguishes all forms of clinging and attachment. This means that suffering can be overcome through human activity, simply by removing the cause of suffering. Attaining and perfecting dispassion is a process of many levels that ultimately results in the state of Nirvana. Nirvana means freedom from all worries, troubles, complexes, fabrications and ideas. Nirvana is not comprehensible for those who have not attained it.

4. The path to the cessation of suffering.

There is a path to the end of suffering - a gradual path of self-improvement, which is described more detailed in the Eightfold Path. It is the middle way between the two extremes of excessive self-indulgence (hedonism) and excessive self-mortification (asceticism); and it leads to the end of the cycle of rebirth. The latter quality discerns it from other paths which are merely "wandering on the wheel of becoming", because these do not have a final object. The path to the end of suffering can extend over many lifetimes, throughout which every individual rebirth is subject to karmic conditioning. Craving, ignorance, delusions, and its effects will disappear gradually, as progress is made on the path.

idk maybe i am just a hopefull pessimist, but i would never know until i fully understand the definitions of a realist and a pessimist and their variables =]

Friday, January 9, 2009

Cashmere Thoughts


WELL WERE DO I START LET ME SAY I'M SORRY FOR NOT POSTING I JUST HAVE BEEN REALLY BUSY(I REALLY DONT HAVE A REASON WHY TAY HASN'T BEEN POSTING I TOLD HER SHE NEEDS TAY IS JUST A SINGLE BLACK FEMALE ADDICTED TO RETAIL AS KANYE WOULD SAY)OK Since Starting school Monday i have Been so tried Everyday (i for got how demanding school is)Well since its 09 me and tay have been on the hunt looking high and low CROSSING THE SEVEN SEAS..LOL Ms.right and Mr'.right because me and tay have been stay single for too long.We Are Just SICK AND TRIED BEING SINGLE THESE DAYS IT JUST ANIT FUN. SO THIS YEAR WE MAID A CHOICE TO get back out there and start dating again lately it has been really fun.i have been have i really good time(I CANT SPEAK FOR TAY)BUT OTHER THEN I HAVE BEEN JUST DOING THE SAME THINGS I USUALLY DO DRESS AND REST

SO TODAY I WENT TO GO VISIT MY STEP MOM ON KINGSTON AT HER BEAUTY SALON( I LOVE ANYPLACE WERE I CAN LOOK AT BEAUTIFUL BLACK GURLS ALL DAY..LOL)THAN I WENT TO BREVOOT TO CHILL WITH MY CUZZOO(I SWEAR HE IS THE BLACK HUGH HEFNER) SO THEN WE WENT TO GO CHILL WITH A FRIEND( IM NOT GOING TO SHOUT THIS PERSON OUT U NO WHO U R)THEN I HAD TO GO HOME BECAUSE I DON'T GOT IT LIKE USED TO...IM GETTING OLD...IT WAS COLD AND MY NOSE WAS RUINING LIKE A RACE.....ITS 2:09AM SO DO NT BE MAD ABOUT MY TYPING BE CAUSE IM TRIED AS HELL ....AND I'M WATCHING JACKASS IT IS SO FUNNY..

Thursday, January 1, 2009

NEW YEARZZZZZ FUNNNNN



(tay broke the chain) So yesterday i started my day off sleeping i slept tell 3(because i really dint feel like doing shit)but i got my ass up and went to go to see the ball drop sober wasn't drunk i really had a ball(OK IM A RAPPER)I WAS SO COLD I NEVER BEEN SO COLD IN MY LIFE( i should have drank)but i really didnt want to hear no gun shots or get shot(lol) that's why i went to see the ball then to see a hospital like my sister(got to drunk and had so many clothes on she looked like a lesbian going camping)BUT im so ready for this year now i can start cutting niggas off and start surrounding myself with positive people,also start seeing what i really went out of life..... thats it for me here is a Holiday laughter