sighs..thoughts thoughts thoughts

welll yeah..i been chilling lately. eric said i had to write a post so, this is it -_-
my week has been really bleh, nothin special
i have been talking to my "friend" alot..wont be tellin you guys who cuz thats too much..but the important people know
i always wondered why people repeat their mistakes even when they know the out come of their decisions already. why does time repeat itself. my friends tell me its because of my nature, they say its just who i am..to hold on to the things that i believe in and have love for. but sometimes i annoy myself because i constantly contradict and do the things that i promise to myself i would never do it again. And i'm not saying that i regret anything that i did, or am doing..in all honesty i am less bitter because i would rather know that what i'm feeling is real and grow from it, than regret that i had him at all. I won't lie tho, i do wish things were different..i always wonder what if i hadnt done that how would this be. or what if i did do this how would that be. but in life you cant dwell on the what if's. needless to say i am grateful for all i had/have /may have/ or may have had . idk its confusing. A girl doesnt like to feel like they have no definate place in the lives of the one they want. especially when the love they have for them is unconditional. through it tho all i am tryin to think of this as a temporary thing that may in time progress, if it is suppose to. fate never fails and karma always delivers. i just wish it was something i can do that would make all feelings mutual. Not just that Big L word, i need more than that. maybe if things continue as they are goin these feeling would die down and i wont be as affected by the little things. Maybe

Ipod saved my life lol

When life gives u lemons

Well let me start by saying happy Holiday's(since tay didn't).Im so glad that Christmas is over now i can get ready for new years and by getting ready for new years i mean shopping.on the day after christmas(Or kristmas as some would say lmao)I Took i trip to Soho to do some post Christmas's shopping(And to see what fucking sales the dumb ass news was talking about)but when i went all i saw was long lines and nothing i liked so i felt like a dumbass for going....But anyways then i went to take some of the gifts back that i didn't like that's why i always look for the receipt in the bag.SO i wen to one my favorite stores Armani exchange to take back a ugly ass shirt my moms bought me and wen i tell u that line so so long i thought they was giving out GOVERNMENT CHEESE OR FREE FOOD STAMPS OR SOMETHING( tay can i get a woot woot for that one)So i left and just got tired of shopping and went home
and looked at reruns of runs house..my day was mad boring...

Friday night lights woot woot

So yeah this friday me and the gurlies decided to go out. we had no idea where we was goin but we just up and went. it turned out to be me, Shana bka breezy, Sofia aka sofa doll, and Monifa aka Ne-Ne. we strted off with a group of people, but we dont know how to keep friends, so once the drama started we decided to part ways with them...they was effin dry anyway.

So we left them at bryant park. we was about to ice skate but i decided that my skinny ass is much too fragile to break any bones. plus it was raining on and off, and the ice was o'd type wild crazy crowded. 

so we made our way down to 34th street, so niffa and sofa could catch that victoria's secret sale..hahaha i'm puttin they shit on blast. there is where i got mad cuz dudes was literally standing in the store tryna bagg girls -_- desperate much. and on top of that i saw all the shit i got on sale for half price, so i started kallin everybody broke bitches lol im harsh like that sometimes.

after we went to times square ND WANTED TO GO TO OLIVE HARDEN BUT THE WAIT WAS A HOUR AND WE WAS HELL OF HUNGRY..SO WE SETTLED FOR FRIDAYS -_-. I had the jack daniels sampler that came with ribs, chicken, and shrimp..and i got a side of mashed potatoes. i would have took a pic of it but umm yeah it was gone before it hit the table ^_^ i was starvedddddd. we had funnn , and im suprised cuz im more of a sunday morning girl than a friday night but thats how it be sometimes =]]

More pics from the night =]]