my week has been really bleh, nothin special
i have been talking to my "friend" alot..wont be tellin you guys who cuz thats too much..but the important people know
i always wondered why people repeat their mistakes even when they know the out come of their decisions already. why does time repeat itself. my friends tell me its because of my nature, they say its just who i am..to hold on to the things that i believe in and have love for. but sometimes i annoy myself because i constantly contradict and do the things that i promise to myself i would never do it again. And i'm not saying that i regret anything that i did, or am doing..in all honesty i am less bitter because i would rather know that what i'm feeling is real and grow from it, than regret that i had him at all. I won't lie tho, i do wish things were different..i always wonder what if i hadnt done that how would this be. or what if i did do this how would that be. but in life you cant dwell on the what if's. needless to say i am grateful for all i had/have /may have/ or may have had . idk its confusing. A girl doesnt like to feel like they have no definate place in the lives of the one they want. especially when the love they have for them is unconditional. through it tho all i am tryin to think of this as a temporary thing that may in time progress, if it is suppose to. fate never fails and karma always delivers. i just wish it was something i can do that would make all feelings mutual. Not just that Big L word, i need more than that. maybe if things continue as they are goin these feeling would die down and i wont be as affected by the little things. Maybe
Ipod saved my life lol
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