Forgive me But...

why do guys suckkk sooo muchhh?

like i simply do not understand the male species...

-why is it that when us females try our best to satisfy and be everything that a guy wants, this is when they dont want you? I thought that maybe we make ourselvess too available or is it basically that they just aren't interested? But if that is so..howcome they never seem to let that be known from the start?I understand that sometimes it seems like things are moving too fast or you may  be confused..but let me work with you, especially if im trying my hardest to be apart of your life.

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now i am not trying to personalize this so readers dont be so vain because this isn't about you or me. i am just curious.

Now to personalize it....

I have taken into notice that you have been ignoring me lately and from expirience i know when a guy just doesnt want anything to do with me. I just wish that you would have been more of a man about it. Guess i can blame it on the free lol so from today on i am going to say to you that i understand and that i will no longer be a burden on your life..its is whatever. Thanks for showing me a little taste of perfection lol even if it was only 2 weeks that went well.  i enjoyed your company and conversation...i loved the walks and the time i spent playing with your um  dog lol =) ily

anyway......

Why the helll does it seem like i am the only person in the whole entire world who is never happy!? I build myself up only to be broken down again. I burn bridges only to be stranded. I sacrifice, Utilize, stigmatize, sensualize and antagonize myself, all for the happiness and well being for that special guy. If i had a dime for every guy that played, lied, cheated, hurt, disrespected, led on, and left me...i would be one Rich chick. I spend so much time canonizing these guys that i forget to appreciate myself. I set high expectations, and notice potential in people that would rather do dirt then do right. And trust me i am not trying to change you when i give suggestions about the things that i do and do not like for a guy to do..i am simply trying to help you better yourself. Obviously there is a light that i see in you and i want to make it my responsibility to keep that light shining and/or make it illuminate more. That is my duty as your girl/ Girl that is interested in you. It seems like i bring a full coarse meal to the table, but they would rather the fast food. It is all so confusing. And then they complain that there aren't any good women left...I wonder why 

Haha Crazy Flashback! plus a dedicaton

Well yeah people this is soo random, but i was talking to the homie Archie and i got this crazy flash back to This comic that I used to be in love with. Its called Archie <--- Obviously lol there were like 4 different versions of the comic. It was Archie, Archie's Digest, Betty and Veronica (my fav) and Archie's paL Jughead. I used to make my mother take me all the way to L.I just for a Brand new Archie comic. 

well so yeah Archie was in love with Betty and he was on and off dating veronica. Veronica was rich and had alot of money and she was like one of the most popular girls. Betty was popular too but she was more like myself  =) nice, cool, one of the guys at times, and very romantic. Betty always fronted on Archie tho, but would be jealous when he was with veronica. personally i think that Betty and Archie are made for each other..and Veronica is Perfect for Reggie. =)

ON ANOTHER NOTE....

Although i know that mostly everyone who reads this is gonna be like wtf? and idc...Eric aswell, but the truth is i dont give a fuck lol not to be mean and i appreciate the views, i really do,  but dont complain about my topics! would you rather me blog about fashion, music , gossip and all that other bullshit that other people Blog about?

if yes fuck off and dont read the blog !

if no then =] thank u and there will be more of my bullshit topics and random unimportant posts to come...and Sidebar: that ^^^^^ was a personal attack on someones kneck lol idc if my post are boring..get a fucking life! lol 

much love bloggers <3>

Seventeen Forever =)

Well Friday Febuary 20th was my birthday and i have to admit that i felt soo loved and adored. I have Friends that i never even knew that i had. Btw thank you everyone who texted/ myspaced/ facebooked/ AIM'ed or called me!

so yeah yesterday me and my most dearest friends went out. It was me , momo who's birthday is sunday. Maryam aka mama cheerah, Bree aka my future college roomate, and Heather aka My mom's man's daughter aka...somin like a sister lolll. My mom decided totake us to benihanas and then to the movies and then to cold stones. the movie didnt work out too well cuz madea was sold out. But it didnt really matter to me because i really dont want to see madea. so we went to cold stones after benihana and i had a french vanilla caramel graham cracker marshmellow cake icecream scoop in a waffle cup =DDD

all together my day was great!
but much love bloggers im out